Thursday, November 15, 2018

It’s my freaking 30th birthday!

I actually didn’t think I was going to go all out and write up an entire (last minute) blogpost for my birthday (as if you hadn’t noticed, my blogging as been severely lacking these days….for which I actually have a little anxiety about said situation – ugh), but I realized that I had a number of thoughts and feelings about this “milestone” tonight (November 14th), and wasn’t sure I’d be able to fit it all into one Instagram  post in the morning. 

Nick likes to say that “30 is just another number, same as any other”, but I feel that is just typical man logic for yeah. I on the other hand feel like my life has been shifting for the past several years, and turning 30 only solidifies where my life is headed and what I no longer care to waste my time and energy on. There are just certain things that I’ve begun to slowly realize aren’t really applicable to me nor feel is important to spend my limited time on, and instead have created goals + lifestyle choices, and have seen these dreams slowly take shape over the last 2-3 years. While some of it has been out of choice, I’m quite amazed and fascinated that it’s been the things I have no control over that have been the biggest shapers.

In my early 20s I truly believed that once I got married, life would be set….even perfect, and I wouldn’t have a care in the world. I honestly laugh when I think about the little trials (if you can even call them that) Nick and I experienced in our relationship while we were dating, and thought some of the things we had to work through would be the hardest things I would ever have to endure….oh silly naive me. But that bubble quickly popped once we had Evanna, and man, life is one hell of a trip and can be quite unkind at times. And even when I consider the “cards we’ve been dealt” and the experiences we’ve endured since 2014 – I’m quite sensitive and aware that we could have it way worse and we are quite blessed when it comes to the support we receive from our friends, family, medical team, and even our country. Even the simple fact that I have an extremely supportive spouse + partner who does more than his fair share when it comes to raising our children is something I often take for granted. 

My 20s may have seen a few close friends completely disappear from my life without explanation, however, it also saw over 100 new relationships take place and develop. It slapped me with the reality of how precious this life is, and how a healthy body is the probably the most underestimated gift ever given. Moving into the last few years, I’m learning to care a little less about what every person thinks about me, and that it’s okay if not everyone likes you. I’m still learning how to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin, and how amazing it is to really put yourself out there. Sure it’s risky, and there have been plenty of times that things haven’t exactly worked out in my favour and told “no”… but for every rejection, there has been a better “yes” around the corner waiting for me. 
While I’m a tad afraid to think what may come in my 30s (can you blame me?), I’m also quite excited. From the personal goals + dreams I intend to crush, continuing to see my time as valuable and living more intentional. Sure, “selfcare” is continuing to be so important, but translating that into meaningful and more purposeful actions that lead to an overall healthier person physically and mentally. 

So to my 30s…. I may be a little hesitant for you and what you have in store for me… but let’s DO THIS!

xo Kierra

Thursday, August 2, 2018

New Natural Playground with TD Bank

This summer, our little family has been trying to make the most of the few warm months we actually get here in Calgary that’s being cut even shorter with Evanna’s upcoming surgery + hospital admission in just a few week’s time. For the first time, Evanna is somewhat enjoying being outside (she only “tolerated” it last year lol) and finally wanting to explore places outside the four walls of our home – so we’ve been on the hunt for different parks around the city of Calgary.

Well not far from our house, located on the east side of Stoney Trail is the new Ralph Klein Park (okay, so though it’s actually been around for several years, it still seems new to me!), and just last week TD Bank Group -- along with the City of Calgary, opened up its new natural playground there as a part of their commitment to revitalize over 150 community green spaces across Canada, in celebration of our country’s 150th birthday last year. This commitment now lives on through TD’s new platform, The Ready Commitment, which helps improve the quality of our environment to create a more inclusive, sustainable future.

When we first arrived at Ralph Klein Park, Nick and I were initially taken back by the beauty and cool facilities of this man-made wetland that we really didn’t know existed til’ now (especially when I basically drive past it often when I’m headed to work). Nick’s first reaction walking towards the playground was stating that his dad would probably love to come and do a little bird watching (as there were noticeably a lot of birds flying around), while I too thought my sister and her kids would find it a pretty neat place to explore.

What’s immediately noticeable is just how different and unique this park is compared to your generic neighbourhood parks. Basically, all the structures and play structures were made of wood and logs. There were several sandy areas to play in and this awesome zipline that seemed to be the most popular -- as there was pretty much always a little lineup to ride it (though, to be fair, we were indeed at the playground’s opening, so attendance will probably be significantly less on your average day lol). As someone who’s always in search of beautiful views, I was absolutely smitten with the 360 degree prairie scenery that surrounded the playground. Then being July, one of my favourite sights of Alberta summers is the endless yellow canola fields, and they were definitely in full bloom just on the east side of the park. There’s a massive green space (perhaps great for a casual game of soccer?) directly south of the playground that’s populated with several picnic tables that many parents enjoyed sitting and watching their children play from, as well as several benches placed all around the playground itself.

For my fellow special needs mamas, while the Environmental Education Centre and surrounding area seemed pretty accessible (with our stroller), I honestly don’t think the playground itself has much to offer for those whose children have mobility issues and rely on strollers or wheelchairs to get around. That said, I felt it did contain a number of sensory and physical therapy activities that provided many other wonderful benefits. From building sand creations or unique structures with rope and small log pieces that are scattered all over the playground, to climbing + balancing on the log beams that provide for some great physical exercises. The “mountain structure” contained rock climbing elements and secret hideaway spaces, and really provides a great place for kids to burn off some energy!

Overall, I think young families with children aged 3 to 12 will enjoy and benefit from the natural playground the most due to the unique development and learning activities it hosts, while the size of playground and adjacent green space could easily cater to large family get-togethers (you can even book it for birthday parties) and big group gatherings. One of my favourite things about living here in Calgary (and why I’m not surprised it’s considered one of the most desirable cities to live in) is the absolutely incredible outdoor spaces that are available all over the city -- and this new natural playground built by TD is just another amazing addition to that.

xo The Irvine Family

This sponsored blogpost was done in partnership with TD Bank, but the review of this playground contains opinions + thoughts that are completely my own.

Friday, July 20, 2018

First Family Vacation with Big Horn Meadows Resort

I’ve talked about it in the past, but I sometimes have a “love hate” relationship with social media. For the most part, it has been a vital therapeutic tool for me to work through my thoughts and feelings as a trach + heart mom, while also providing a way to meet and connect with other families going through very similar circumstances.
On the other hand, seeing pictures of families enjoying trips + vacations that aren’t really given a second thought (okay, I admit that trips with small kids are a lot of work regardless – but you get what I mean), are a little hard to see because it’s something that’s easier said than done when it comes to our family’s particular situation. Heck, I’ve recently been publicly sharing our little plight (which included some tear filled IG stories) of trying to get Evanna down to California (that’s only a 3 hour flight… ) for her upcoming open surgery in a safe manner next month that has now turned into a preadmission and ICU to ICU medical transfer due to logistical difficulties. 
Basically up until just recently, we have pretty much always stayed within the city limits of Calgary (minus trips out to the “bedroom community” of Okotoks where our parents live – but that doesn’t really count lol), and just the one road trip up to Edmonton last summer for Evanna’s cath, where the end destination was the hospital… as Evanna is on an exceptional high amount of oxygen that makes traveling extremely difficult to do.

However, I was contacted about an opportunity to take a family vacation out in Radium -- and as soon as I determined that the drive was completely doable (just a 3 hour drive from Calgary!), I JUMPED at the opportunity, and immediately said yes! So, even though Evanna is already 4 years old, we finally got to enjoy our very first family vacation curtesy of The Residences at Big Horn Meadows Resort. We stayed in their brand-new duplexes that are currently for sale and truly enjoyed all the comforts of home (which we definitely needed to “remake” our little home hospital) … not to mention the 360 degrees of breathtaking views.

The resort is situated in the middle of Radium Hot Springs in British Columbia, and just a 10 minutes drive from the town of Invermere (that offers other convenient amenities). First of all, the drive out there (and back) was anything but boring and had to seriously refrain myself from making Nick pull over every few miles to take photos, but with small kids, it’s not easy to stop and so I just enjoyed the landscape from the comfort of our van.
The Residence at Big Horn Meadows is available for year-round living with a luxurious touch that caters to both families or those looking for a way to retire in style. As rental property owners ourselves, Nick and I also thought it would also be a fabulous little place to rent out during the weeks you’re not able to be there yourself. While not surprised, we learned that most owners happen to be Albertan, as you get that “BC Escape” without having to go too far from home.
We ended up bringing along Evanna’s little tricycle and were able to walk around the immaculate Springs Golf Course that’s situated in the beautiful Columbia Valley. 
Also… if it’s any consolation, the weeks leading up to our vacation, we told several members of Evanna’s medical team about our little trip, and both Evanna’s primary cardiologist and occupational therapist stated they too have stayed at Big Horn Meadows in the past (our OT even said that a friend of hers own a place at the resort) and said we'd have a fantastic time (… so doctor approved?? Just kidding!), and to enjoy ourselves. 

The first evening of our arrival, we immediately headed for the pool with the kids, and were thrilled to have the whole pool to ourselves! We brought a floatation device -- but Evanna ended up being a bit too heavy for it (and decided to err on the side of caution as trachs and water do not mix), and so ended up giving Bennett a whirl in it instead. 
The following day we decided to venture into Invermere and stumbled upon Gerry’s Gelati and ended up having the most delicious savoury waffles sandwiches followed by some gelato ice cream. You just gotta love those “hole in the wall” finds that feel like a once in a little lifetime treat! That evening Nick and I left the kids with the homecare nurse that also accompanied us on this trip and decided to enjoy a little private date night (gotta take advantage of those when you can, am I right?). We decided to check out the Radium Hot Springs, and while I’m a very proud Albertan - can I just say that the hot springs in Radium absolutely blows the one located in Banff out of the water!? I just love how it’s somewhat feels more enclosed by the mountains and has this stunning rock wall that serves as a beautiful backdrop, and it just made the whole experience that much more magical.

Lately I’ve been saying to friends and family that though Evanna tolerated the outdoors last summer, she’s actually been enjoying the outdoors this year and always gets excited when we’re getting ready to go somewhere. So to be able to go on our first family vacation last month and create some really beautiful memories as a little family at Big Horn Meadows Resort was truly incredible on so many levels and will cherish them forever. 

xo The Irvine Family

If you’re interested, I created a special Instagram highlight labelled “Radium” and saved all the IG stories from our trip there. I recorded a little time lapse of our drive there and back, did a little tour of the townhouse that we stayed in, some clips of our family walk around the resort (and Evanna riding her cute little tricycle!), a run-in with a small herd of actual bighorn sheep (a very common site in that area -- especially in the Fall according to the real estate agent we met with), and the stunning views from the Radium Hot Springs! Click HERE to view it!!

[disclaimer - a complimentary/all expense paid 2 night stay was provided in exchange for this review]

Sunday, April 1, 2018

Sleep Safety with Owlet

My pregnancy with Bennett brought out so many different and mixed emotions. While a majority of them were of extreme happiness and joy, there were definitely moments of guilt, worry and major anxiety. I often tell people that Evanna “threw us off the deep end into parenthood” and opened up our eyes to a world where things can happen beyond our control, and we as parents have to arm ourselves with tools and knowledge to negate the everyday risks as best we can.
Not only did the birth of our oldest, Evanna, make us more aware of certain situations, but also my husband’s career as a Paramedic made us extra sensitive to certain dangers. While he keeps a majority of the details to himself (obviously due to patient confidentiality), I’m aware of the fact that he has been on a few pediatric calls where if a few safety measures were implemented, the outcome would have been drastically different.

**In her quest to advocate for crib safety, I have been given explicit permission from Jordan to share her story about her son Sloan within this post, how his death affected me as a mother myself, and further prove why this topic is so incredibly important to talk about. If you’re interested, I’ve linked Jordan’s blog, Instagram, and a few articles that were written and circulated when her story went viral last Summer.

In the days following her son’s death, Jordan DeRosier BRAVELY (like beyond brave) revealed the details surrounding Sloan’s death and explained that it was due to an unsafe sleep environment in an effort to warn other parents to learn from her heartbreaking mistake. I seriously bawled my eyes out and was completely devastated on her behalf. However, I was admired by her incredible strength to be so frank, honest, and open about the details that might paint her in a bad light – even if it meant that it could potentially save just one child from the same tragedy. In the days and weeks following these events (and as she continued to post about her grief and pain as it unfolded), I held my pregnant belly tight, and felt my heart tighten in anxiety for the same potential harm that could befall my own child.
The American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP) has established safe sleep guidelines that parents should follow to help keep their baby safe when sleeping. One of these guidelines includes following the ABCs of safe sleep: Alone, on their back, in their crib — no bumpers, pillows, sleep positioners or blankets. After reading these guidelines, I immediately began to strategize ways I could ensure the safety of my newborn, and that’s when I stumbled upon Owlet Baby Care and their Smart Sock Baby Monitor. As a “heart/trach/vent mom”, I value the capability to track my healthy baby’s heart rate and oxygen levels while they’re sleeping as it brings me peace of mind.

* Owlet does not claim to prevent or eliminate SIDS due to the cause of SIDS being unknown. However, Owlet is designed to notify you if your baby's heart rate and oxygen levels go outside the preset range and many parents find additional peace of mind using the device.

You see, we somewhat have the unique luxury (at least that’s the way I currently see it) of homecare nurses that watch and physically monitor Evanna due to her tracheostomy throughout the night while we sleep, and I wanted something that had similar capabilities (obviously it’s not the same) that would notify us if Bennett’s oxygen saturations and/or heart rate were to fall out of the preset ranges and give us that peace of mind. We’ve been using the Owlet for several months now (as I truly wanted to give it a thorough trial before I give my honest review), and Nick and I both truly think it’s a great product. You definitely have to get into the habit of putting it on every night, followed by making sure it’s plugged in and gets charged during the day, but it’s now become apart of our routine and we just do it out of habit.

A few things to keep in mind, and things we’ve learned since using the Owlet over the past few months…
- due to the poor WIFI strength in our bedroom (where Bennett currently sleeps in a bassinet), we actually weren’t able to use the Owlet App for the first week or so after Bennett was born. The Owlet works on Bluetooth technology, so while the Owlet base and sock still works without WIFI, we weren’t able to view its readings on our phones until we purchased a WIFI booster for our home.
- The Owlet Smart Sock is intended to provide peace of mind. It is not intended to diagnose, treat, mitigate, cure, or prevent any disease or condition. It is not a medical device and is not intended for use as a medical device or to replace a medical device.
- The Owlet uses low 4.0 Bluetooth energy so there are not any wires. The Owlet is meant to ONLY work while the baby is sleeping to provide you peace of mind during the night.
- The Owlet is a product meant to be used from newborn up to 18 months of age.

A few additional notes…
- we do in fact have a medical grade SPO2 monitor that we have on loan to us from our cardiologist to monitor Evanna and “spot check” her throughout the day and night. What I love about the Owlet, is that it’s completely wireless and we don’t have to deal with annoying cords and wires (which we’re all too familiar with…).
- a huge problem with traditional SPO2 monitors that are used in hospital, is that the LED sensor sits directly on the skin, and its higher intensity can cause little burns if not rotated every 12 hours (which has happened to Evanna). What I love about the Owlet, is they use a less intense LED sensor, and it doesn’t sit directly on the skin so we don’t have to worry about/keep track of which foot we put the Owlet sock on each night, and just place it on whichever foot is most convenient to us while getting Bennett ready for bed.
- Make sure you also consider the most important elements of sleep safety, which is ALONE, on their BACK, and in their CRIB – clear of clutter such as bumpers, pillows, blankets, stuffies, etc.
- Owlet recently submitted their 510(k) for FDA clearance to create a medical version of the monitor, which would be more robust and could be used in clinical settings and for diagnostic purposes. However, they don't have a timeframe to share yet on when that would be available. This page on their website has more information about clinical efforts, research and more.

Overall, I highly recommend the Owlet and truly believe it should be at the top of every baby registry. The benefits are just too great, and hope that like other baby products -- this starts to become a staple in every home with a newborn.

Disclaimer: The Owlet was gifted in exchange for my honest review, but all thoughts and opinions are my own. While I often call myself and am recognized as a “heart/trach/medical mom”, please know that I’m only an “expert when it comes to Evanna” (and know her complete medical history), and that I’m constantly consulting + seeking the proper advice of our large medical team of pediatric specialists, and urge you to always speak to your care provider with any and all concerns about your child’s health and well-being.

xo The Irvine Family


Monday, March 26, 2018

Bennett's Baby Blessing

Last month (February 11th) we held Bennett’s baby blessing and invited family and a few friends to celebrate with us. Between getting a ton of hand-me-down baby boy clothes from my sister and everything else we had going on between the end of my pregnancy until now (working lots, Christmas, all of Evanna’s therapy appointments, etc), I just had no desire to spend the energy on planning a separate baby shower for Bennett and decided that his Baby Blessing would be enough celebration (which meant I was comfortable spending a bit more money on it too).

Just like Evanna, Nick gave a very short + simple (but of course meaningful) blessing. For those who are also LDS, know that baby blessings can sometimes get dragged out…. but Nick tends to be a man of few words -- so that definitely isn’t a problem for us whatsoever (I know a few people were actually a little surprised at how quickly it was over lol).

Anyways, here’s a few photos from the afternoon, and of Bennett in his blessing outfit ----

xo The Irvine Family